This weekend Bend hosted the Cascade Cycling Classic and the Summer Festival, and a nationally reknown Quilt Show was in nearby Sisters. So we left town.
Saturday morning I grabbed some buckets, some bags and my boy and we drove 125 miles (200 km) to a u-pick blueberry farm in the valley. (Only tiny, wild berries grow in plenty in Central Oregon: strawberries, huckleberries, serviceberries, currants. And juniper berries.) It was awesome. Blake was awesome. He's such a joy.
He talked nonstop the whole time. Sometimes he was conversing with me, but mostly he was just talking. He talked about his movie, about his daycare, about how funny it is to put a bucket on one's head. He entertained himself for about half an hour in the car with his bucket: I have a yellow head! I have a helmet on my head! I'm hiding! If Sasha were here, she couldn't find me! Then he tore the handle off and spent another 15 minutes expressing concern about his ability to pick berries if he didn't have a bucket with a handle.
The Fitchett blueberry farm is just about an acre, neat rows of old bushes dripping with ripe berries. It's bounded on one side by a blackberry thicket and on two sides by a stand of cedars. The Willamette river flows behind the cedars. It was the most fragrant place! Also quiet. When we lived in Portland I picked berries on Sauvie Island on farms that people operate for a living. The Fitchett farm is more dilettante. Pick your berries and put your money in a jar. No one was there but Blake and me.
My three-year-old son spent two hours picking berries. Imagine! Mostly he picked them and ate them, or picked them and threw them into spider webs (he is fascinated by spider webs at the moment), but I know he saved quite a few because between us we picked eight pounds (3 1/2 kg) of blueberries. Eight pounds!
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Did you know that blueberries are filled with cheese and bananas? Blake, who squished quite a few, told me so. If you squish some you'll see that he's right.
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Sasha spent the day with her dad. When we got home, she was perched quite happily in her high chair, eating grapes and Cheerios and yammering at her pop. The kitchen was spotless. C. said Sasha was happy as could be all day, played by herself a lot, napped for two hours. When she saw me she was pleased but, you know, no big deal. Hey Mom, glad you're back! Now Dad, as I was saying...
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I don't mean to say that my children are perfect. Blake whined for the final half hour in the car ride there, and on the way back had a 20-minute meltdown that ceased only when I stopped in a restaurant that has a train running on a track near the ceiling. Sasha woke up from her nap just pissed, C. said. She yelled from the bike trailer on the ride to his sister's house.
But those are small things. On the whole, we all had a blast.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Monday, June 27, 2005
Ants
While pulling weeds from one of our flower beds, I disturbed some ants. I pulled up the root of a weed, turning over the soil, and hundreds of tiny black ants swarmed. Blake came by to watch.
So many ants covered the area where the soil had turned that it seemed the ground was moving. After a moment they dissipated slightly (where did they go?) and those remaining clustered around what looked like five grains of rice. Moving furiously, they unearthed a small hole and dragged the rice into it. With the rice underground they seemed to calm down. Most of the ants left. A half dozen hung around the hole they had made, working with bits of bark dust; I thought they were probably disguising the hole.
Apparently I disturbed an ant nest and unburied their eggs. I knew ants lived in that area -- these black ants love the ponderosa trees -- but I didn't realize they had a nest there. I was just pulling some weeds.
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Human activity in Bend is like that. I didn't realize anyone was living there. Sorry. Sorry, cougars. Sorry, owls.
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Last summer the city widened Skyliner Road, which runs a few hundred yards south of our house. They added bike lanes, curbs and a sidewalk. I had never seen a road rebuilt before. It was fascinating. Blake and I walked up there every few days. (Once he brought his wheelbarrow along, utterly charming the construction crew.)
One evening Blake updated his dad on the road's progress, and they decided to walk up together. It was nearly finished then; the curbs and guardrail were in place, but the drain pipes were still exposed.
As they approached the road, C. heard the quail crying. He and Blake watched two adult quail dashing back and forth on the far side, clearly in a panic. Their babies were stuck in the road. They couldn't hop the curb. C. walked over -- further panicking the parents -- and lifted them up. Then he heard more cheaping and discovered more babies inside the drain. A few of those babies were alive, just barely; C. climbed into the drain and rescued those, too. He placed them near the parents.
When they returned home, Blake was full of excitement, telling me how he and daddy had rescued baby quail.
So many ants covered the area where the soil had turned that it seemed the ground was moving. After a moment they dissipated slightly (where did they go?) and those remaining clustered around what looked like five grains of rice. Moving furiously, they unearthed a small hole and dragged the rice into it. With the rice underground they seemed to calm down. Most of the ants left. A half dozen hung around the hole they had made, working with bits of bark dust; I thought they were probably disguising the hole.
Apparently I disturbed an ant nest and unburied their eggs. I knew ants lived in that area -- these black ants love the ponderosa trees -- but I didn't realize they had a nest there. I was just pulling some weeds.
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Human activity in Bend is like that. I didn't realize anyone was living there. Sorry. Sorry, cougars. Sorry, owls.
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Last summer the city widened Skyliner Road, which runs a few hundred yards south of our house. They added bike lanes, curbs and a sidewalk. I had never seen a road rebuilt before. It was fascinating. Blake and I walked up there every few days. (Once he brought his wheelbarrow along, utterly charming the construction crew.)
One evening Blake updated his dad on the road's progress, and they decided to walk up together. It was nearly finished then; the curbs and guardrail were in place, but the drain pipes were still exposed.
As they approached the road, C. heard the quail crying. He and Blake watched two adult quail dashing back and forth on the far side, clearly in a panic. Their babies were stuck in the road. They couldn't hop the curb. C. walked over -- further panicking the parents -- and lifted them up. Then he heard more cheaping and discovered more babies inside the drain. A few of those babies were alive, just barely; C. climbed into the drain and rescued those, too. He placed them near the parents.
When they returned home, Blake was full of excitement, telling me how he and daddy had rescued baby quail.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Bug of the Month
Our master bedroom has a long window along the north side of the house which looks directly at my neighbor's garage -- so, of course, our curtain is nearly always drawn. But in the mornings Blake climbs into bed to wake me, and then I rescue Sasha (since he wakes her when he leaves their room; or, if she is already awake, she's vocal about being left behind), and then I raise the blinds to see what the day presents us.
At this time of year it's a lovely way to wake. It's nearly always sunny in the morning, damp from sprinklers. A young, ethereal vine maple which grows beside the house casts a green shadow. At the moment this vine maple has tiny, reddish flowers growing in clusters. The bees love them.
Two different species of bees hover constantly around this tree. I find it so interesting. I had to look it up. One species is clearly a bumblebee: a fat yellow and black thing with wings so tiny it's amazing it can fly. It's cute. The other species is long and thin with three distinct body sections: classic insect. It is not cute. It's not particularly notable except in contrast to the bumblee. But I looked around for awhile and I believe this is a leaf-cutter bee, which makes its home in underground holes that it lines with pieces of leaf. The leaf-cutter bee was Bug of the Month at the Pacific Northwest Native Gardening Society in August 1996.
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Sasha has been weaning herself. Twice today she refused to nurse. Wait, wait! How do I get her back to sleep in the night if she won't nurse?
At this time of year it's a lovely way to wake. It's nearly always sunny in the morning, damp from sprinklers. A young, ethereal vine maple which grows beside the house casts a green shadow. At the moment this vine maple has tiny, reddish flowers growing in clusters. The bees love them.
Two different species of bees hover constantly around this tree. I find it so interesting. I had to look it up. One species is clearly a bumblebee: a fat yellow and black thing with wings so tiny it's amazing it can fly. It's cute. The other species is long and thin with three distinct body sections: classic insect. It is not cute. It's not particularly notable except in contrast to the bumblee. But I looked around for awhile and I believe this is a leaf-cutter bee, which makes its home in underground holes that it lines with pieces of leaf. The leaf-cutter bee was Bug of the Month at the Pacific Northwest Native Gardening Society in August 1996.
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Sasha has been weaning herself. Twice today she refused to nurse. Wait, wait! How do I get her back to sleep in the night if she won't nurse?
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Frontiers part 2
I am sitting down to write before 11pm. Woo-hoo! C. is in Portland for a-night-and-a-day, and both kids (having spent 2 hours in a kiddie pool in the sun) fell asleep early. So here I am.
To elaborate on the frontier.
Oregon is obviously a frontier in LeGuin's first sense: a great rush of people came here in (as she says) a stormfront, not long ago, and utterly remade it to suit themselves -- killing or displacing the people and most of the animals who had been here, knocking down trees, re-routing streams, damming rivers, building roads and houses and towers...
But then something interesting happened. The people changed. This place changed them; they changed as they adapted to it; and so while at first they were "the people who came here," they transmuted into "the people who live here."
Now they are on the other side of the frontier. They are Oregonians. They live and breathe and raise children here; this is their everyday reality; and though it is not what it was, still they love what it is.
But today – especially in Bend – another great rush of people is coming. These new people have different ideas about what constitutes a good town, and Bend, while a great place, is not precisely what they had in mind; so they want to alter it. Also, they’ve got emotional baggage. They’re scared of certain things and try to protect themselves against them – whether they ought to still be scared, here, or not. (Hence the gated communities. Medians. Etc.) And they behave in a way that seems to be a reaction to a hurried environment – brusque, curt – that just doesn’t exist here.
So the people who live here, the people who consider themselves Bendites, find that their town – as well as the forests and desert -- are being transformed under their feet. And if they want to speak with these newcomers, they have to use words and concepts that the newcomers understand. And risk being changed themselves – or (even worse?) risk learning to see this place as the new people see it, forgetting what they originally valued, until it’s gone.
To elaborate on the frontier.
Oregon is obviously a frontier in LeGuin's first sense: a great rush of people came here in (as she says) a stormfront, not long ago, and utterly remade it to suit themselves -- killing or displacing the people and most of the animals who had been here, knocking down trees, re-routing streams, damming rivers, building roads and houses and towers...
But then something interesting happened. The people changed. This place changed them; they changed as they adapted to it; and so while at first they were "the people who came here," they transmuted into "the people who live here."
Now they are on the other side of the frontier. They are Oregonians. They live and breathe and raise children here; this is their everyday reality; and though it is not what it was, still they love what it is.
But today – especially in Bend – another great rush of people is coming. These new people have different ideas about what constitutes a good town, and Bend, while a great place, is not precisely what they had in mind; so they want to alter it. Also, they’ve got emotional baggage. They’re scared of certain things and try to protect themselves against them – whether they ought to still be scared, here, or not. (Hence the gated communities. Medians. Etc.) And they behave in a way that seems to be a reaction to a hurried environment – brusque, curt – that just doesn’t exist here.
So the people who live here, the people who consider themselves Bendites, find that their town – as well as the forests and desert -- are being transformed under their feet. And if they want to speak with these newcomers, they have to use words and concepts that the newcomers understand. And risk being changed themselves – or (even worse?) risk learning to see this place as the new people see it, forgetting what they originally valued, until it’s gone.
Monday, May 23, 2005
Frontiers
"On the Frontier" an essay by Ursula LeGuin published in "The Wave in the Mind."
This is what it's like to have grown up in Bend. LeGuin has her own pacing, but I chopped it to be blog length.
"A frontier has two sides. It is an interface, a threshold, a liminal site...
"The front side, the yang side, the side that calls itself the frontier, that's where you boldly go where no one has gone before, rushing forward like a stormfront, like a battlefront. Nothing before you is real. It is empty space ... and therefore full of dream and promise. ...And so you go there. Seeking gold, seeking land, annexing all before you, you expand your world.
"The other side of the frontier, the yin side: that's where you live. You always lived there. It's all around you, it's always been. It is the real world, the true and certain world, full of reality.
"And it is where they come...
"Coming from another world, they take yours from you, changing it, draining it, shrinking it into a property, a commodity. And as your world is meaningless to them until they change it into theirs, so as you live among them and adopt their meanings, you are in danger of losing your own meaning to yourself."
If you have to explain yourself using their words, or define yourself according to terms they understand, and forget your own words for yourself, "you are in danger of losing your own meaning to yourself."
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The other blogging moms I read are urban -- Toronto, Philly, DC -- and they never write about trees or birds or squirrels or dogs or anything, really, but humans and the environment built by humans. Why is that?
This is what it's like to have grown up in Bend. LeGuin has her own pacing, but I chopped it to be blog length.
"A frontier has two sides. It is an interface, a threshold, a liminal site...
"The front side, the yang side, the side that calls itself the frontier, that's where you boldly go where no one has gone before, rushing forward like a stormfront, like a battlefront. Nothing before you is real. It is empty space ... and therefore full of dream and promise. ...And so you go there. Seeking gold, seeking land, annexing all before you, you expand your world.
"The other side of the frontier, the yin side: that's where you live. You always lived there. It's all around you, it's always been. It is the real world, the true and certain world, full of reality.
"And it is where they come...
"Coming from another world, they take yours from you, changing it, draining it, shrinking it into a property, a commodity. And as your world is meaningless to them until they change it into theirs, so as you live among them and adopt their meanings, you are in danger of losing your own meaning to yourself."
If you have to explain yourself using their words, or define yourself according to terms they understand, and forget your own words for yourself, "you are in danger of losing your own meaning to yourself."
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The other blogging moms I read are urban -- Toronto, Philly, DC -- and they never write about trees or birds or squirrels or dogs or anything, really, but humans and the environment built by humans. Why is that?
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